it is a good idea to carry tissues for such an emergency

Hello friends,

So I have full time employment! this does mean I have less time to ruminate and compose scintillating posts based on my thought life. While working 9 hour days I must not be distracted from the task at hand...

One of my reasons behind the title of this blog is the ever increasing list of things that I thought I would know by now but don't. I imagined myself to be a quite well put together, wise, interesting and focussed woman at 30. Where did I get this idea from? I will continue to blame TV. I still forget to look if there is toilet paper in the stall before I am 'indisposed'. I have required life experience to be my teacher over and over again. It can be a depressing thought, the older we get we realise the more we have to learn. Personality must effect whether you agree with this point of view, what do you think? I have a poll started on the right hand side of the screen. Vote!

Being here in Canada a second time, starting from scratch has been more of a stretch than I expected. I have been surprised at the number of things I seem to be learning still. How to spend time by myself, how to make a good first impression, how to prioritise what to spend money on, I could go on. In particular I've been learning about patience and humility. I'm keen to learn this quickly and without it being too obvious to the people around me. Something tells me I may be learning these for a while yet!

Here in Toronto I am not furthering my career, I'm spending savings on experiences, meeting new people and I don't quite know what is going to happen next. It isn't always comfortable and it has taken longer than I wanted for me to get used to being a bit uncomfortable. I am getting there slowly, I feel like I am growing up, again. I do always want to trust God more and it has been a while since I needed to trust him for such everyday things like having enough money, having a place to live, what to do with my life. The more I think about it the more philosophical I feel and the more I see God making use of this time and I'm thankful for that.

Maybe I have been thinking just as much even while putting in the hours at the mall. It isn't hilarious there so perhaps that is why this post is not a 10 on the funny scale. I do plan to write more on my observations on Canadian 'culture' soon. As a follow up to the fracas with the quotation marks last time, this website is funny. This wee gem is too and it complements the sentiments of the first link too.

xx